Eric Erlandson of "Hole", a fake band with fake popularity released a book entitled "Letters to Kurt" and he is going to die. He's sued like a mother fucker. They are all going to pay. And Dave Grohl actually did write "My Hero" about Kurt. He's screwed again. Every single one of them knew it was murder... Here's the lyrics --

"My Hero"

Too alarming now to talk about
Take your pictures down and shake it out
Truth or consequence, say it aloud
Use that evidence, race it around

There goes my hero
Watch him as he goes
There goes my hero
He's ordinary

Don't the best of them bleed it out
While the rest of them peter out
Truth or consequence, say it aloud
Use that evidence, race it around

There goes my hero
Watch him as he goes
There goes my hero
He's ordinary

Kudos, my hero
Leaving all the best
You know my hero
The one that's on

There goes my hero
Watch him as he goes
There goes my hero
He's ordinary
There goes my hero
Watch him as he goes
There goes my hero
He's ordinary

call him ordinary again faggot and you're dead.

Hey everyone if anyone is reading this... i almost got murdered by a random guy who i went home with and i feel sick. I don't know what to do. I need you so bad, Kurt. I hope you assholes have some compassion for this situation that me and him have dealt with our whole lives... literally being away from our spouses since birth. I'm so devastated. I'm working on getting some current photos of me up here. Hopefully from the photo shoot after the L.A. weekly interview. That's all I have to say. Courtney Love is going to rot in hell.

Thankfully still alive,
Rose

new song

that velveteen coat (aberdeen)

I used to be
I used to be
a little boy
a little boy
from aberdeen
aberdeen
good ole aberdeen
aberdeen
she honestly loved me
she honestly loved me
since I was seventeen
seventeen
wearin' baggy ripped jeans
baggy ripped jeans
from seventeen
seventeen
from seventeen
seventeen
seventeen
seventeen
i wrote her a love song
wrote her a love song
ten miles long
ten miles long
and then I rose up
then I rose up
up on the scene
up on the scene
up on the scene
up on the scene
and left aberdeen
aberdeen
left aberdeen
aberdeen
for that stretch limosene
stretch limosene
I was young and green
young and green
if you know what I mean
know what I mean
I wasn't the man
wasn't the man
to make a stand
to make a stand
and she was an actress
she was an actress
with hollywood dreams
hollywood dreams
and I was a boy
I was a boy
from wholesome aberdeen
aberdeen
so when she arrived
when she arrived
in her own limosene
own limosene
i was just wearin'
i was just wearin'
my favorite yellow tweed
favorite yellow tweed
strummin' a guitar
strummin a guitar
playin' a rock star
playin' a rock star
on mtv
mtv
on mtv
mtv
on mtv
mtv
on mtv
mtv
and she didn't notice
she didn't notice
'til I put on that coat
put on that coat
she thought it was cotton
thought it was cotton
but i'd nearly forgotten
nearly forgotten
it was velveteen
velveteen
my best velveteen
velveteen
my best velveteen
velveteen
my best velveteen
velveteen
she thought I was trendy
thought I was trendy
playin' that fendi
playin' that fendi
just a good ole boy
just a good ole boy
from wholesome aberdeen
aberdeen
aberdeen
aberdeen
I gave her a smile
gave her smile
to last for a while
to last for a while
but she thought it was cocky
she thought it was cocky
and thought I was foxy
and thought I was foxy
but didn't take note
didn't take note
'till I put on that coat
'till I put on that coat
she thought it was cotton
thought it was cotton
it was velveteen
velveteen
my best velveteen
velveteen
on the rock-n-roll scene
rock-n-roll scene
I honestly loved her
I honestly loved her
since seventeen
seveenteen
before I rose up
before I rose up
on the scene
on the scene
she didn't take note
she didn't take note
'till my most romantic show
my most romantic show
candles and cloves
candles and cloves
and a hand-beaded necklace
around my throat
my hair was a mess
hair was a mess
dressed in my best
dressed in my best
jade and lavender
lavender
jade and lavender
lavender
jade and lavender
lavender
jade and lavender
lavender
so there I was sippin'
there I was sippin'
pennyroyal tea
pennyroyal tea
she thought it was crass
she thought it was crass
sittin' on my own ass
sittin' on my own ass
so she left in a hurry
left in a hurry
and I said baby don't
worry
baby don't worry
I'm still that boy
still that boy
from seventeen
seventeen
wearin' those baggy
wearin those baggy
ripped blue jeans
ripped blue jeans
so I got down
I got down
on bended knee
bended knee
if she could discover
if she could discover
just how much I love her
just how much I love her
in that black velveteen
black veveteen
she'd know what I mean
know what I mean
it took her a while
took her a while
to put up a smile
put up a smile
so we got married
so we got married
in aberdeen
aberdeen
good 'ole aberdeen
aberdeen
good 'ole aberdeen
aberdeen
we sported our own
we sported our own
stretch limosene
stretch limosene
and I finally asked her
I finally asked her
what made her lean
what made her lean
and she bluntly told me
she bluntly told me
it was that soft velvet coat
when she took note
so I had to come clean
I had to come clean
about that note she wrote
note she wrote
to the magazines
to the magazines
about my best velveteen
my best velveteen
that velveteen jacket
that velveteen jacket
that caused such a racket
that caused such a racket
and came with a tacked back
came with a tacked back
was right off the hat rack
right off the hat rack
and didn't belong
didn't belong
to me
to me
it was mtv's
mtv's
yeah mtv's
mtv's
it was mtv's
mtv's
it was mtv's
mtv's
it was mtv's
mtv's
it was mtv's
mtv's
it was mtv's
mtv's
that velveteen coat
velveteen coat
and that note she wrote
note she wrote
said she dug me
said she dug me
but she honestly
loved me
she honestly loved me
since I was seventeen
seventeen
wearin' those baggy
wearin' those baggy
ripped blue jeans
ripped blue jeans
haulin' barley
haulin' barley
from good 'ole aberdeen
aberdeen
na na na na na
na na na na na
na na na na na
na na na na na
na na na na na
na na na na na
na na na na na
na na na na na

This little group[tribe] always was and always will be --

a mulatto -- Jared
an albino -- Kurt
a mosquito -- River
My libido -- me

Hey honey I think I am going to be sick. I found information on all your solo material that existed before you were killed and I have got to get my hand on those lyrics. I have got to. I can't imagine how many songs were directed to me again. I am contacting lawyers like crazy. I love you.

Rose

God's Children's SLOGANS, before they KNEW who they WERE:

THE CHOSEN ONES


the husband/the leader/suitor number one

Kurt Donald Cobain
feb. 20th, 1967 - apr. 5th 1994

"In the Sun I Feed As One"

and

"God Is Gay"

the brother/suitor number two

River Jude Phoenix
aug. 23rd 1971 - Oct. 31st 1993

"Just call me Lucifer"

He's hid some bones in Alexa's Attic

the dark knight/suitor number three

Jared "The Scared" Leto
birthdate unknown

"This Is War, God"

Alibis?? Exactly ONE.

And

the center of the globe/The Girl Genius/The Baby/the wife/God's 'favorite'/Daddy's little girl

code name: Beth Berger alias Rose Phoenix-Cobain

"Better Than God"

now

"I Am God"

and

"anything you can do I can do better"

"numero uno"


------------------------------- AND THESE WERE THEIR ATTITUDES BEFORE THEY KNEW WHO THEY WERE RELATED TO---------------------------------- the one and only God Almighty --- He sure knows how to pick them.

Polly gets a rewrite and the Martyr (Voice in the Crowd) dialogue is written....

First of all... Dave Grohl is dead. He knew, more than anyone... the plot for Kurt's murder. Read the lyrics to My Hero. That was my last straw. I may actually go into the police station at this point and report it.

"He's ordinary"?? Even his shade of blonde I will never find again... You're gonna get atleast twenty years for this Dave. I hope the Foo Fighters was worth it. Kurt had respect for you all... and you threw him in the dumpster like he was nothing. He was my everything and you will pay. It's funny. Dave knew it was murder, but at the same time, he writes in My Hero like it was suicide just to twist it around to try and save his ass if it's salvagable at this point.

It's NOT. Any ways, you're all dead. "Polly" is below... I wanted to give it more depth and personability. As a LARGE side note, this is a *FICTICIOUS STORY*. KURT DID NOT RAPE ANYONE.

Eat Shit.

"Polly"

polly wants a cracker
i think i should get off her first
i think she wants some water
to put out the blow torch

isn't me have a seed
let me clip your dirty wings
let me take a ride cut yourself
want some help please myself

get some rope you have been told
promise you i have been true
let me take a ride cut yourself
want some help please myself

polly says her back hurts
maybe I should slit her wrists
bring her some aspirin
or call her a funeral hearse

i never went to college
in high school was a wrestlin' dish
daddy was an asshole
with a penny couldn't make a wish

polly's barely breathin'
mommy wouldn't even make a fist
red rover says it's over
we're wagin' a penitentiary trist

mommy call the doctor
or just hang me from your cryptic list

now polly's in the gutter
I shoulda avoided that one crude salvic kiss
mommy was a martyr
like a guppie I couldn't get it right
workin' for the warden
now i'm servin' 25 to life

a suicidal hang man
maybe i'll finally end this civil gripe
polly says don't bother
she'll charge in before i get it right

mommy can you help me
i'm beggin' for your umbilical strife
now their gonna gas me
you should see the mass prision hype

all of this from an erection
just to hide the pain of a parental fight
i'll probably pray to jesus
if polly lets me near the kike

see all of you in heaven
god forgave a little boy who lost his sight
mommy come to confession
i will show you in spades there's no trite
 now back into the womb
polly says she will forgive with full might


*in loving memory, "Polly from the punk rock show"


From the Sweet Valley Highish "Suicide Series" The prequel to Rockstar Suicide, the disgruntled fan who loses it over his harsh suicide note and starts the revolutionary frenzy against him.

The Martyr (The Voice in the Crowd)

EXT. MANSION - DAY

a massive crowd is gathered around an exquisite house with large trees hiding the threshold. Soft, quiet sobbing can be heard. Fans mill about... lighting candles... embracing each other. It is as silent as a church.

A female head bobs around. Glancing about. She hesitates.

FEMALE VOICE(to herself)
Oh my god. This is unbelievable. What are
they doing?? This is rediculous.
(yelling to the crowd)
What are you crying for? What are you crying
for, huh?? There's nothing sad here... he got
what he wanted... he's burning out!

the audience remains silent. They continue to light candles.

FEMALE VOICE(glancing about)
(loudly)
Put those candles away! Stop doing that.
(to herself)
Oh my god. Stop doing that.
(to the crowd again)
There's nothing to cry about! He wasn't afraid!
And you're not a messiah, Curt.

She hesitates. More sobs drift through the atmosphere.

FEMALE VOICE
(in frustration)
You've got to be kidding me. Quit crying.
It's better to burn out than to fade away?? You
can't do that! That's not an answer. And it's
not a cause...
(beat)
Helluva punchline, huh?? Fading away? I don't
have the passion anymore?? You never had
the passion! Why are you so quiet, huh? Cat
got your tongue? Suffering in silence?
(beat)
What did you really wanna say? Go ahead...
tell them! You hated these people! They're no
good! You despised them.

She angles her attention to the crowd again --

FEMALE VOICE
(loudly)
What are you crying for, huh? He hated you!
He chose death. Not you! Go ahead. Call him
an asshole. He still hates you!

Softly, to herself --

FEMALE VOICE
oh my god.
(pause, yelling up to the open window)
I'm on my time with everybody??
(beat)
He knew how much you loved him. He knew
how much you needed him. But I'm the one
who's suffering. Not you.
(to the open window)
You were my everything! How could you do this!
(whispering to herself)
no. God.
(back to the open window)
I'd rather be dead than cool?? Have you no shame?
out of the ground... into the sky... out of the sky....
into the dirt?? What's wrong with you! Didn't you
know how much I needed you! Oh my god!!

Her voice raises --

FEMALE VOICE
We didn't know anything about your life!
I don't eat anything green?? What does
that mean?
(beat)
lettuce... broccoli... celery... asparagus...
spinnich... peas.... cabbage...
(beat)
apples???

She shakes her head again, her face remains in the shadows --

FEMALE VOICE
I'd rather be dead than cool???
(beat)
Well you're dead! And it's not cool!!
What else should I write?
(beat)
I don't have the right!

The crowd is dead silent now. The tears have subsided.

FEMALE VOICE
The soul is cheap?
(beat)
That's it?
(beat)
That's it???
(beat)
I would have given you anything! Anything!
(beat)
I lie in the grass and fertilize mushrooms??
(beat)
How could you be so crass? How could you
be so disrespectful when I needed your life.
I needed it!! It's not funny!
(beat)
I hate myself and I want to die?? Then say so!
How could you do this to me?? How could you
do this. It's not funny, Curt. You were my
everything. My everything. My everything!
(beat)
How could you do this to me?....

The silence fades out along with the picture....

FEMALE VOICE
You were my everything. I've always loved you.
Always. Always. How could you do this to me!
The soul is cheap? The soul is cheap?? Your
soul was everything to me! Everything!
(beat)
Answer me goddamn you! Answer me! How
could you do this to me!
(to the crowd)
Put down those signs! He had a life goddamn it. He
was a person, you know! Not just an image. Not just an idea!
A person! Oh my god, I loved you!!
(beat)
How could you do this to me. How could you do this to me.

The crowd remains silent as she continues to rant....

FADE TO BLACK

Finally got a bite with the LA Weekly for an interview in the music department. Hopefully this will amount to the cover... I will keep you posted.

Peace.

ROOT BEER SAVED MY LIFE

Rose Phoenix-Cobain finally prepares to post a "Barbara Walters" style serious interview on Kurt Cobain's true feelings and life story that she plans to offer rights to Kurt Cobain biographer Charles Cross.... It begins like this:

Are we rolling? This will be pretty intense. I have my feelers on to your genuine interests that you care... truly care... why Kurt blew his brains out. If I ever do admit that it was truly suicide after my discovery of all the lyrics... I swear on his grave, that I will end your life, if you think for one second or even imply it -- that the 'note' left at that scene was his real suicide note.

Now that we've got that out of the way. I'm ready to begin. Here we go. Brace yourself.

One. Two... Three.



"It all started when he lost his mother...."


STAY TUNED!!! SERIOUS STUFF!!!

Jesus fucking christ I am going to lose it:

HOW MUCH FUCKING PLASTIC SURGERY ARE THE TWO COBAIN WHORE'S GOING TO GET BEFORE THEY REALIZE KURT DOES NOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT WANT THEM??? He needed his wife! I AM THE ONLY ONE WHO WEARS A WEDDING RING WITH HIM ATTACHED AS THE HUSBAND!


FRANCES -- That is HIS FUCKING MONEY THAT YOU DO NOT DESERVE. YOU STUPID UGLY LITTLE COURTNEY- LOOKALIKE TRAMP. STOP PHOTOSHOPPING PICTURES OF YOU TWO TOGETHER. THAT MOST RECENT ONE WAS MY LAST FUCKING STRAW!!!! HE IS YOUR FATHER. HE DID NOT WANT YOU. YOU WILL ONLY BE SPORTING THAT COBAIN NAME FOR A LITTLE WHILE LONGER WHORE. QUIT TAKING PICTURES FOR HIM. HE'S DEAD!! YOU"RE FUCKING WHORE MOM TOOK HIM FROM ME BECAUSE SHE KNEW ABOUT US.

ONE MORE PICTURE AND YOU ARE GOING TO FUCKING JAIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


*UPDATE:

Rose Phoenix-Cobain sues DAVE GEFFEN AND GEFFEN RECORDS FOR ONE TRILLION DOLLARS FOR THE COST OF LOVE KURT COBAIN'S LIFE.

If you thought you were pissed about losing a husband before you even meet, check this one out. Lovelorn indie film director/singer/model Rose Phoenix-Cobain is about to go ballistic on Dave Geffen and Geffen Records for the loss of her true love, late musician Kurt Cobain. In 1994 the young musician died of what was ruled a suicide just moments before he had hatched big plans to leave his whole life behind and scour the countryside for his true love that he'd been writing songs to since hitting it big in 1991 after his band's hit Smells Like Teen Spirit took over the Billboard charts. What seemed like the typical death of suicide that would take his life, did in fact take his life, there wasn't much cynicism that it wasn't true. but the murder facts are way stronger than one has a clue to do with.

Rose Phoenix-Cobain has been studying the case for five years now and is disgusted by how obvious the severe infraction is. "He was gutted like a fish by his ex-wife out of severe obsession and I DESERVE a platform and a voice and the TRILLION DOLLARS that I plan on suing Geffen for, as well as having the whole company arrested for the 71 counts of murder the company is accompliced with. They should have given him way more security. He was worth billions. I know he had more things on his mind than making the greatest music at the time, like informing me of his untimely murder, but he was meant to be a legend. And the world took that away from him, handed him a loaded gun, and said: have fun!!!

Phoenix-Cobain innocently started researching Cobain's death a few years ago due to the fact that she has a personal emotional draw to victims of suicide-related deaths and often runs an advocation club entitled SUICIDE PREVENTION OUTREACH. But she admits her draw to the Cobain case had more of a personal pull to it than a random one. "I knew I was connected to Kurt severely. I just didn't know to what extent. At first I just thought it was a rival.

I had the attitude, "dude, I'm you. I'm better at being you... than you are so screw you." I had no idea he picked up on these vibes until he wrote the hit "Come as you are" which seemed to be a shout out to her as an invitation to step forward, come on out, and introduce herself to the man she claims to be better at than the man himself -- Cobain sings: "Come as you are, as you were, as I want you to be, as a friend, as a trend, as an OLD ENEMY" Cobain states in the hit. Referring to the fact that he was aware of how much Phoenix-Cobain despised him for his hypocritical ways that were so severe... he invented his own term to describe them: Contradictionary Lies. "I knew Kurt had written some lyrics to me... but I wasn't sure to the level of extent. They just keep popping up. It was like he was obsessed with me -- in a good way. It ruled his life. But such a hit and gigantic global definer like come as you are?? That's shocking to think that he could have based such a worldly song on such a small, personal situation and no one was even aware.

"Come as a friend. As a TREND. As I want you to be." Phoenix-Cobain believes Cobain was referring to what a regular occurence it seemed to be to claim to be the real Kurt Cobain, that the "trend" was so enticing to him that he couldn't wait to write a whole song inviting the real one to meet him, perhaps under the bridge....

He goes onto state that: "I don't have a gun. NO I don't have a gun"....  "Well, that's a relief, but I was about to toward him at one point. My life has been such hell. We are definitely connected like siamese twins. Every time Kurt lies through his teeth regarding something else he didn't stand by as a moral, I would pay the price in spades in my own life." But their connection gets more complicated than you can imagine.

"He may have thought at first he just had the hots for his original self. OR who it stood for in another person. But not much later he realized, Oh my god. That's actually my wife! What am I doing! Where are you honey!!?"

"Bipolar opposites attract. I'm a man trapped in a woman's body... he's a woman trapped in a man's body. But in the end we are both madly in love and have ruined lives because of are misplacement from each other. " Phoenix-Cobain's last straw was when she realized Cobain's last released hit single entitled You Know You're Right was directed to her as well. The clencher was when she discovered the title phrase 'you know you're right' was his final statement to her before his sudden death that DOES in fact varify that she IS the one he has been referring to through the years, and she DOES know what she's talking about as it pertains to him and when the time did come for her to step out with the information -- and naturally no one believed her -- just remember, honey: YOU KNOW YOU'RE RIGHT.

She goes to great pains to emphasize that contrary to the popular belief of fans that this song is a "break up" song, it is actually the exact opposite.
"This song was his 'last straw' song when it came to leading his miserable fake life that he was leading with a woman he had no desire to consider for one moment as his actual wife, that he must have really reached the point where he finally had everything together and was finally ready to get the hell out of dodge. He states in the hit; "I will move away from here. You won't be afraid of fear...." Phoenix-Cobain reiterates -- "this is his final decision to get out of Seattle and inform his true wife that she's the one he really wants to be protecting from harm. He goes on to ensure Phoenix-Cobain that the affair with Love was never something he sought out in his heart or mind by stating: "No thought was put into this (their 'relationship'), I always knew it would come to this"... the "fall and separation of their faulty union" Phoenix-Cobain elaborates. He then goes on to attack Love's character like he is fond of doing by stating: "Nothing really bothers her. She just wants to love herself."

This song leaves a particularly wistful smile on Phoenix-Cobain's face when the lyric that makes her heart feel content for her husband's inner turmoil the most is dropped as his final annunciation that he did in fact have everything together to a point where he was in fact "getting out of the marriage to Love and Seattle, and possibly music itself. Or atleast Nirvana. When he states; 'I feel calm and warm inside. I no longer have to hide. I have never been so well. I have never felt so swell."

"Yeah. He was out of there. He had the whole thing arranged. But they still got him before he could get to the door. "Kurt has admitted that there really were times where he actually really did end up in his car. Start the engine. Put it in drive. And start down the drive to go find me." But like the song Shattered by the band O.A.R. mentions, against his better judgment and extreme self-doubt... he always ended up "turning the car around" and heading back home.

"I was still so young at the time though. Everything was off." But she is still in awe over how many songs actually have references directed to her.

"His whole catologue. Songs written speaking to nothing but me personally.... his 'secret inside source'. I truly am the relative that no one knew Kurt Cobain had. And THOSE ASSHOLES ARE GOING TO FRY. I promise you that. A TRILLION dollars for his life. And the GAS CHAMBER. That's it. I've had enough".

She sure has...

Dave's song on the whole thing -- I'll be inviting him to my KURT COBAIN WAS MURDERED AWARENESS CAMPAIGN AT THE WHISKEY --

 Enjoy my notations:


"I'll Stick Around"

I thought I k:new
all it took to bother you
every word I said was true
and that you'll see

how could it be
I'm the only one who sees
your rehearsed insanity (yeah, murderer!)

I still refused
all the methods you abused
it's alright if you're confused
let me be

I've been around
all the pawns you've gagged and bound (yeah five deaths she's responsible for now)
they'll come back and knock you down (yep, I'm comin' Courtney)

I've taken all and I've endured
one day this all will fade I'm sure (NO IT WON"T NOT WITH ME AROUND!!)

I don't owe you anything [x4] (you owe kurt asshole! where's your song to him??)
I had no hand
in your ever desperate plan (to murder him)
it returns and when it lands
words are due (TO ME! ALL OF YOU!)

I should've known
we were better off alone (referring to his introduction of Kurt and Courtney like they needed HER help to succeed somehow...)
I looked and I was shown ( I was wrong)
you were too

I've taken all and I've endured
one day this all will fade I'm sure (NEVER!!)

I don't owe you anything [x8]

I'll stick around [x2]

and learn from all that came from it(YEAH, i'LL TEACH YOUR ASS!!)

Jesus. I find this one out now--

about this time, I find out YOU KNOW YOU'RE RIGHT is directed to me as well, another evidential song to file in the case with the lawyers under COURTNEY"S DEAD MEAT!! CHECK THIS OUT SHIT SUCKERS:

"I WILL MOVE AWAY FROM HERE (SEATTLE/HER)
YOU WON'T BE AFRAID OF FEAR" (ANOTHER LINE OF PROTECTION AND HIS WAY OF SAYING HE WAS MEANT TO BE HERE FOR ME!)

Was he desperate, really desperate at this point?? Thinking he was bothering me and I was annoyed?? This song has the same urgent ring to it as the sporadic lines in LIVE THROUGH THIS: He goes back and forth between talking about me and to me, then talking about Courtney and the failed/fake marriage he was living through "No thought was put into this, I always knew it would come to this" A DIVORCE.

Then after some groveling to me, he goes back to mention her again: let's talk about someone else

And then the obvious lines right about Courtney: NOTHING REALLY BOTHERS HER SHE JUST WANTS TO LOVE HERSELF. STERLING SILVER BEGINS TO MELT STEAMING SOUP AGAINST HER MOUTH STEAMING SOUP BEGINS TO MELT-- she loved wearing sterling silver. And the reference about steaming soup begins to melt refers to how COLD she really is.

He goes on to define his contentment with the ending of his fake marriage to her and the idea of retrieving the beginning of his true relationship with me

"I'm so calm and warm inside. I no longer have to hide. I have never felt so well. I have never been so swell"

and.... this is the last song he releases, with those lyrics, right before.... he blows his brains out. ???

And then he states again:

"I will move away from here. You won't be afraid of fear." Yes. I needed his protection. Not HER. Then for a final blow to all you shit suckers who still think I'm out of my mind and full of shit... he states again and again::

YOU KNOW YOU'RE RIGHT
YOU KNOW YOU'RE RIGHT
YOU KNOW YOU'RE RIGHT

"Yes. honey. It's you I am talking about!"

Yeah, assholes. I know I'm right!

Here's the full song:




"You Know You're Right"

I would never bother you
I would never promise to
I would never follow you
I would never bother you

Never speak a word again
I will crawl away for good

I will move away from here
You won't be afraid of fear

No thought was put into this
Always knew it would come to this

Things have never been so swell
I have never felt this well

(alt:
I have never felt so frail/
I have never failed to feel/
I have never felt to feel/
I have never failed to fail)

Pain! [x3]
You know you're right [x3]

I'm so warm and calm inside
I no longer have to hide

Let's talk about someone else
Sterling silver begins to melt

(alt:
Steaming soup against her mouth/
Steaming soup begins to melt)

Nothing really bothers her
She just wants to love herself

I will move away from here
You won't be afraid of fear

No thought was put into this
Always knew it would come to this

Things have never been so swell
I have never felt this well

(alt:
I have never felt so frail/
I have never failed to feel/
I have never felt to feel/
I have never failed to fail)

Pain! [x5]
You know you're right [x17]

Pain ...

Old project "Suicide Souls" gets swapped to "ROCK-N-ROLL SUICIDES" new theme!

I am amping the plot of this project up with a killer theme that revolves around seven suicide deaths who all go out in killer blazes of glory all to a different rock-n-roll song!! Check out this premesis::



Rock-n-Roll Suicides


synopsis:

They didn't live life to extreme, but when it came to their killer deaths they each stole a different rock-n-roll theme.....

The Characters:

The Rockstar

In his career he didn't amount to shit, but when it came to his last will and testament he wasn't afraid of taking one!

death song: 7 Shades of Red, perfomed by a variety version of Kurt Cobains.


The High School Kid

In high, she never amounted to a rock star, but in death she decided to break into the house of the biggest one of all, and go out with the ulitmate bang he went with....

death song: Perfect Drug, performed by Nine Inch Nails.


The Janitor

When it came to his intellect, he cleaned toilets with the precision of a scientist... and he grew up with the intelligence of one. With no family or money, his scientific dreams were never won, so he takes his demise in stride -- just a lonely fatherless son.

featuring the only ballad death song, The Scientist, performed by Coldplay.


The Writer Who Couldn't Spell For Shit

And finally said, this career is too damn hard, I quit!

death song: End Of The World As We Know It, Performed by R.E.M.


The Investment Banker

He finally said, to hell with the trade towers, and jumped off of 'em to prove it -- but he has company!

death song:  Laila, performed by Eric Claption.


The Thrill-Seeker

He was afraid of spiders but not cliffs... he knew in the end he'd eventually bite it!

death song:  The Kids Aren't Alright, performed by The Offspring.


Featuring

The Lunatic

Taking other's lives was easy, but when it came to his own, he just couldn't get it right...

death song, Enter Sandman, performed by Metallica


And

The Indie Director Who Finally Said: Up Yer's Hollywood!

Cameo performed by Rose Phoenix-Cobain as The Director and the only one LEFT ALIVE.



This will be an epic film spoof with tons of cameos and scenes from classic films of our generation, from the 80's 90's and 2000's. It will be dedicated to the loving memory of, who else, Kurt Donald Cobain.

haha.... haha... it's so funny you stupid little nirvana fans!

Oh god honey... we got banned from the stupid little grunge forum board. Form a sentence with this assholes.  Kurt's been wandering alongside me since he died... yes his SOUL. More importantly his heart and my heart both are so connected none of your snide comments want to believe it because you are just green with stupidity. Who the FUCK do you truly think he wrote a song like I HATE MYSELF AND WANT TO DIE for???? Courtney?? OR maybe one of you pathetic shit suckers??? "YOU"RE THE ONE I WANNA REFILL....." yes that's right honey. I AM. "JUST ANOTHER QUIRKY CLICHED PHRASE.... " Now, see. shitsuckers.... Kurt was never a man to be won over. He was always only and forever about me. He was already unavailable heart-wise when Courtney entered the picture. Courtney's style: A. USE A MAN FOR EVERYTHING THEIR WORTH, AFTER GETTING THEM PREGNANT TO LOCK THEM IN,  PLOT THEIR MURDER ,  HAVE THEM WRITE YOUR BRILLIANT DEBUT ALBUM WITH LOVE LINES TO ANOTHER, AND PLANT LINES REGARDING  the PLOT TO PLAN YOUR MURDER and then say on your fake suicide note : I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER COURTNEY. Who are you motherfuckers so angry at???? Is it just too astounding to believe that Kurt's love for someone else can break life and death barriers and be discovered after he is dead versus if he were still alive searching aimlessly for me?? -- His TRUE INTENTIONS with that retirement letter.   "PLEASE DON"T FOLLOW ME. I DON"T KNOW WHERE I"M GOING.... I JUST CAN"T BE HERE ANYMORE. "   That was his true LAST WORDS TO THE CRAZY BITCH WHO HE PUT HIS DICK INTO JUST A COUPLE TIMES BEFORE HE REFUSED due to his LOVE FOR ME. You think I am really doing all this, the journal, my webpage, everything for ATTENTION??? I get enough attention based on my model-good-looks every day and when I have the money for the portfolio I need FROM MODELING with my good-looks maybe you will believe me when you see the picture and think... well... she does look like a MODEL maybe she isn't crazy??? Yeah, that's the way you shit suckers think isn't it..... FUCKERS!!!  Just another quirky cliched phrase.... you know how long it took Kurt to get my attention after he died??? A long long time. I insulted his music and writing ability for a long time because I can write twice as good twice as fast for twice as long and I am painfully afraid that his death and beating himself up about his intelligence and music leads straight back to me and MY INTELLIGENCE and TALENT that ASTOUNDS HIM. MORE SO THAN ANY PRETTY FACE WOULD. HE's MY HERO and I keep having to tell him that in a husband sense so he doesn't feel stupid. He did WAY MORE genius THINGS with the brilliant way he informed everyone of his untimely death in his lyrics that he was WAY MORE FOCUSED ON THAN TRYING TO IMPRESS ME OR ANY OF YOU to a point where HE IS A GENETICALLY-GIFTED GOD. I still haven't figured out why he didn't try to get the HELL OUT OF DODGE (LIKE HE DID) and HE KNEW his days were NUMBERED. READ HIS FUCKING LYRICS. He was coming for ME. The girl in the HEART-SHAPED BOX VIDEO that I HAVE AS MY SCREEN SAVER IS A DEPICTION OF ME, his TRUE WIFE as I AM GROWING UP. STRIKING FEATURES that I had as a CHILD and his little EYES INFATICALLY SINGING TO ME in the VIDEO as a clue as I SKIP AROUND IN THE BACK.... "HERE YOU ARE HONEY. YOUNGER THAN YOU ARE SUPPOSE TO BE, TRAPPED BEHIND A BARRIER ,..... UNABLE TO GET TO ME.... BUT I LOVE YOU AND I TRIED TO WARN YOU!!!!" Now get your own lives and identities and QUIT picking on MINE. I am NOT CRAZY. I AM NOT MAKING THIS SHIT UP. IT'S IN MY SOUL... IT WAS IN HIS SOUL.... and STILL IS. ME FOR HIM. HIM FOR ME. AND THAT"S FINAL. GROW UP!    HALF OF YOU SHIT SUCKERS WHO ARE TALKING SHIT WEREN"T EVEN BORN YET WHEN KURT DIED SO WHAT THE FUCK  IS IT TO YOU ANYWAYS!!! Now if you'd excuse me, I have to contact THE RIGHT PEOPLE TO PLAN MY REAL EVENT to READ MY EULOGY since THE ONE PERSON who MATTERED MOST in HIS HEART and who HE MATTERED MOST TO didn't attend his actual funeral if their even was one! For the man who, actually wrote true words, in the context of YES, HIM OFFERING UP THE ABILITY TO ACTUALLY HAVE THE DESIRE TO DIE FOR ME, as in RUNNING IN FRONT OF A SPEEDING CAR in a CROWDED INTERSECTION to BLOCK ME FROM HARM not BLOWING HIS BRAINS OUT FOR, SADLY though, MAYBE THAT TOO, I MATTER TO HIM and HE IS EVERYTHING to me, I know him more inside than anyone ever DID OR DOES so eat SHIT and DIE  I Have things to DO.

PISS OFF.

I love you baby. *(YES KURT)

p.s. Francis You're STILL DEAD. I DON"T LIKE You'RE BULLSHIT and you're WHORE MOMMY is IN DEEP SHIT TOO !!!!


ROSE PHOENIX-COBAIN --

NOT USING THAT NAME FOR FAME, IT'S ACTUALLY UNCOMFORTABLE TO MENTION BECAUSE THE ATTRACTION IT RECEIVES.

Bye Now.

I love you my precious. I contacted Jared's manager today with the information that he is your brother and needs to help us with the case. So cross your fingers. I love you my everything.

Love Always,

Rose

a message from Kurt and a breakdown for the new series I'm working on --

Here is a little dialogue from Kurt regarding his rise to fame versus my struggling, after I hand him a charming little present of yellow American Spirit cigarettes ---

(to me at unplugged)
"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I'm an asshole. This is rediculous."

(to audience)
"My wife has been struggling her ass off while I sit here on my ass. I hate this shit. Performing. And I'm done breaking her heart with it. She deserves everything I've earned... And I'm gonna spend the rest of my life trying to make it up to her..."

I encourage him to play one song or two if he wants, and he refuses... we exit the stage.

lights out, unplugged.
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Here is a new series I am working on writing, producing and directing. It is going to be in vain of an afterschool special, Sweet Valley Highish only darker.... it is called "The Suicide Series".... it will be four short films with the same theme. I have written several taglines for each, they are listed below:


"The Beautiful One"

logline:

New to school, a boy with extraordinary good looks and a beautiful girlfriend, tries to make new friends, when he is thrown to the side for others because of his extreme beauty, he believes he is unwanted and outcasted due to personality and ugliness. He has always felt ugly due to his lack of relationships, and contemplates suicide with a note that reads his true feelings of disgust. In a shocking twist, he is finally let on to his outrageous physical beauty, sees it for the first time in photos and the mirror, and is so shocked it startles him into suicide any ways.....

taglines:

- he was her everything, If he only could have loved himself too...
- when you've felt ugly your whole life, beauty is only skin deep....
- they say beauty is everything, but for him it was his greatest flaw...
- when you are this beautiful, all a friend is is a known enemy...


"Rock Star Suicide"

logline:

When a famous rock star has the notion to go out in history with a dramatic suicide death, his hollow, emotionless suicide note that he believes is sparkling and worthy of its plot changes the worlds opinion of him and instead of making a statement and big splash, his death revolts all his fans and sends them into a revolutionary frenzy...

taglines:

- he was looking for the ultimate punchline, but in the end he still became the ultimate joke.
- all he ever wanted was just to burn out, but all he managed to do was fade away...
-he lavished in his rock star life... but in the end he paid at the ultimate price...
- his music was deep, but when it came to his suicide note, the cost of his words didn't come cheap.


"The Hollow"

logline:

A group of empty indivduals wreck havoc on a small town just to realize they were born with no souls. When they realize what it is like to have one, they go on a killing spree of the ones with them and end up experiencing the most frightful deaths on earth -- flash to black, then nothingness.

taglines:

- how do you kill something that's already dead inside?
- when you're born with no soul, and the streets have no name, your body is empty and the soulful take the blame...
- their eyes are as vacant as their deaths...


"Tight Spaces"

logline:

A woman who is terrified of small areas finds herself wrongfully locked up into a tiny jail cell and then given a deadly lethal injection that does not kill her. She eventually awakes and finds herself buried alive in a tiny casket, and finally dies of a heart attack.

taglines;

-when you're already clastrophobic, the fear of death has no boundaries...
-she went in for a soda, and ended up paying for it with her life....


And

"The Voice In The Crowd"

The fan from The Rockstar suicide who starts the revolutionary frenzy --

Tagline:

You were everything to me. I don't eat anything green either!!! I'd rather be dead than cool too!! But I needed you!

Kurt's true thoughts when I appear randomly at one of his famous shows --

*The following thoughts were prompted from his mind into mine during an imagined scenario together that we do often with each other of his true wife (me) appearing out of the blue at one of his live performances to surprise him. He was well aware of who I was and I'm next to sure that when I see that wedding ring on his finger during these shows that it signifies me and not Courtney.

Kurt's actual thoughts when he see's me:

"Oh my god. She's so beautiful. She's so beautiful. oh my god she's so beautiful. I'm never going to kill myself now. She's so beautiful. I'm so disgusting. I know she loves me. She's so beautiful. oh my god she's so beautiful".


But.... it was still murder as far as I know according to the lyrics!

I love you baby. YOU are beautiful. Not disgusting.

That was a sad night when I heard those thoughts in my head. I had a feeling.... don't judge a book by it's cover or its "written" suicide note. There are all kinds of demons hidden inside someone who would never mention or share these things to the harsh public in an actual suicide note.

*These thoughts, and dialogue took place during the Live and Loud performance at the end of '93, just five months before Kurt's body was discovered.

God's children

In case any of you are curious how me and Kurt are related and married when I wasn't actually there in pictures even though I was suppose to be and he still knows me as his wife...  the way we were born is not the same way convetional people were born. We are not actually the product of are birth parents kids but God's actual creation that he put together inside our "birth mom" that carried us and raised us. There are four people that are God's created children with astounding talent and great looks that mimic each others. Kurt and I are also half-brother and sister as well as spouses... Kurt has a brother, and that is half-brother Jared Leto and I have my half brother, River. God chose our parents to bare his own kids and that is how we are all connected. We stay only with our spouses so me and Kurt are very religious to not being with another. Kurt's genitalia actually burns if he puts it near another's. It is only meant to be inside of me. It's very romantic.

Cheers.

No luck.

Dear Kurt,

I'm losing my mind. The lawyers just aren't responding and I can't get a hold of anyone at Geffen. I miss you like crazy :-( I love you. I guess I'll just try to see what to do with the rest of the day. Lost my fucking cell phone charger now I'm screwed for calling you know who. I'm so lost without you. Talk to you soon.

Love. Always.