The year was 1991.... a young fledgling rock star from Seattle was in pain. A lot of pain. Rigorous touring was not to blame. Soon the young musician realized something was wrong. Very wrong. His wife, that he'd had memories of but never actually met was missing from his life. From that time period in general. Trapped in 2012, she awaits a way back. A way back to change the future... a future that turns into a place with no Kurt Cobain.

A murder plot that turns into the most famous suicide in history, this site is dedicated to the small story of the husband who left a billion clues for the wife who figured them out.

Now her goal is to avenge her husband's death by pinning the murderer's with their crime...

Meanwhile she pours herself into her journal, awaiting the day she is finally reunited with her husband in time.

Letters to Kurt...

Thursday, June 30, 2011

If only...

Dear Kurt,

I often fantasize about going back in time to 1992 and living there forever. In this daydream... I imagine strolling into a random bar in Seattle. I see you standing, casually leaning against the counter -- ordering a drink.

A lot of the reports after the Rome incident said you didn't "drink" at all. But the actual truth is you don't drink Champagne. Anyone who read your journal knows that you boasted many a time about your drunkeness. One particular time stands out when you were in L.A playing a gig, and you drank so much that you had to run from the stage to vomit!

Such a fun memory.

But there you are. Sweet, quiet and alone at the bar... You have one of your adorable hats on and your hair is tangled. In a word -- breath-taking.

I slowly approach you and my memory still contains every detail from the current time in 92 all the way to 2011.

God. 2011. That still looks so bizarre to me. I still cannot fathom where the time has gone...

I approach you with a knowing look. And you look at me a little curious... And I reach out taking your hand in mine... Just taking your hand. You let me. And I say so calmly, so soothingly...

"Come with me. Just come with me..."

And I lead you toward the door. You let me.

We exit, and you don't question, you just follow... I turn to you as we walk... And I say,

"Please stay with me. You need to stay with me. Please".

And I guard you with my life. Years pass. And you live on. And on. And on.

God. You live on. And it is now 2011. And the world is now beautiful because you're in it. And here you are... Alive. Well.

If only...

Love. Always.

Mayor McGinn.


Kurt Donald Cobain


40 million (alive)
Over 175 million (deceased)

Major players:

-Courtney Love
-Michael DeWitt
-Geffen Records

Contracts in victim's possession at time of death:

-Divorce papers, rewritten Will (wife Love was abolished from it)
-Geffen records contract (REFUSED the signing of this)

Courtney Love

- Married to Cobain for three years.
- Mother to Frances Bean Cobain.
- Singer and rhythm guitarist for band Hole.

Friends, Lovers, and Relative testimonials

"She’s a fucking talented musician, she’s also a beautiful soul. I think she’s so beautiful, but if I ever told her that, and Courtney found out, it would be hell." -

Cobain speaking to a friend about Hole's bassist, Kristen -- dead from mysterious heroin overdose.

"Courtney’s scary. If I take a hike, she’ll make me look bad or do something to make my life miserable."

- Kristen to a friend, Hole'd bassist. Dead from mysterious overdose AFTER leaving the band.

"Don’t fuck with her, just bite your tongue when Courtney does something stupid or insults you. That’s what I do. Courtney has the power to make us a lot of cash.-

Hole's guitarist Eric Erlandson to Kristen -- last person to see her alive, the one who provided her with the pure heroin that killed her.

"As long as she has three puppets who agree that she is the star, there are no problems." -

Kristen on Courtney.

"You fuck my guitar player, constantly make eyes at my husband and now you’re telling me how to sing. Just don’t fuck with me because you’ll regret it forever."

- Courtney to Kristen

"At first she’s really nice to you to your face, but if you do something that she doesn’t agree with, she’ll do something behind your back to make you look really bad."-

Kristen talking to her mother about Courtney

"I care a lot about you but you’re such a low life, Your whole life is a fake. Everything. The people you hang with, the drug dealers, Courtney...even your guitar playing. You’re so good at fooling the crowd."-

Kristen to Eric Erlandson, the provider of the heroin that killed her.

"We know for an absolute fact that junkies rarely use guns to kill themselves. Kurt was either the biggest bionic dope man alive, or he died of an overdose." --

Hank Harrison, father to Courtney Love, PHD in Psychology, author of Beyond Nirvana -- a book that goes into great detail about the capabilities of his daughter regarding the reality of pulling off a murder.

"If he thinks he can get away from me that easily, he can forget it. I'll follow him through hell."

This last selection above, is a quote that Courtney Love gave to a European magazine regarding the first attempt on Cobain's life that took place in Rome Italy one month prior to his death.

This quote, was in reference to his attempt to leave her for good. Cobain had withdrew money from his account and wrote a very unflattering letter to his wife regarding his unhappiness toward their relationship and her low character.

That same night, he walked out on her, but eventually changed his mind and returned to their hotel room.

That same night, Cobain went into a coma after being subjected to a mix of two substances:

The "date rape" drug known as "roofies" mixed with a large amount of Champagne (a lethal combination.)

Both the prescription to the narcotics and Champagne were provided by Ms. Love -- a combination that she has been known to talk about mixing herself.

When Cobain became unconscious and incapacitated from this deadly cocktail, it took Ms. Love TWO AND A HALF HOURS before she called for an ambulance.

Cobain was finally brought to the hospital and on life support/in a coma for several days before finally regaining consciousness.

As expected, due to the type of drug, his memory of the nights events was completely washed away, having no recollection of how he ended up in the hospital -- but visibly shaken, and tremendously grateful to be ALIVE.

The medical doctor on staff as well as a psychologist both concurred that this was in NO WAY a suicide attempt, but rather a very unfortunate accident.

This event, became the first event of many that Ms. Love used to manipulate the world and everyone around her into believing that Cobain was suicidal.

Michael "Cali" Dewitt

Nanny to Cobain and Ms. Love's child, rumored affair with Love.

This individual is always by Ms. Love's side when bad things happen.

Private investigator Tom Grant has numerous recordings and factual information on Michael DeWitt ranging from blatant lies to plagerizing notes at potential crime scenes. Including a note that was meant to look as though Cobain had written it... With one minor error --

It was signed Kurt Cobailn.

The day following the discovery of Cobain's body, Michael DeWitt disappeared from Seattle for good, but not before receiving a handsome first payment from Ms. Love in the amount of thirty-thousand dollars that she claimed was to send him to rehab in Atlanta.

Before Cobain's death, Michael Dewitt worked at odd jobs and as a live in nanny... After, he became the head of an independent music division, at none other than, you guessed it -- Geffen Records.

Coincidence? I don't think so.

Kurt Cobain was a beautiful soul, a loving father and an honorable man. This alone is worth finding out the verdict to all unanswered questions to this case that has gone on too long with no attention.

Please help. Thank you.


Wednesday, June 29, 2011

"Why did we have to lose him? Anyone but Kurt... why him???"

Dear Kurt,

My heart aches. The closer we get to the concept of this case reopening the more I long for your simple words, your sweet smile... Your deep soul.

I stare at your poster on my wall, and I just want to put my arms around you and simply say "Thank you for being you."

It tears my heart apart every waking day knowing what they did to you. A man who would DIE for his daughter...

To know there are people in this world I live in who could just obliterate a life... Just like that... They took you.

And I ache so much. So much just to know you are out there in the world, living a healthy life.

It hurts so bad. I want you here so bad. Why you Kurt...

Why you?

Love always.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Mayor McGinn,

Below you will find a list of facts and inconsistencies in direct relation to the Seattle Police Department's practicing methods and code of ethics at the time of Kurt Cobain's demise.

All of the items listed below can be found on various factual websites and in the direct details of the police report.

This crime was committed 17 years ago. The city officials are brand new. The police officials are now fresh... A case that millions of people have shed thousands of tears over can be yours to justify.

Kurt Cobain Evidence Findings

1. Half drank root beer can found next to the body still had liquid in it.

1a. Logged into the books as EMPTY at time of investigation.

1b. Later revealed as a false statement, another was re-issued stating their was still liquid in the can. A rebuttal statement was then issued regarding a "rookie must have made that mistake".

Still, a DNA test was not performed to identify the drinker of the beverage at such a crucial crime scene.

2. The police report stated that the victim had "barricaded himself" inside the room "with an attempt" to keep others from entering.

2a. Later photographs revealed the "object" that police referred to as the barricade. A tiny, wooden stool propped NEAR two HEAVY glass doors that open in the OPPOSITE direction of the supposed "barricade".

2b. After the obvious blunder, the police retracted the barricade statement from the case.

3. The police report stated that the shotgun "clutched" in the deceased hands was inverted.

3a. From that positioning, the shotgun shell should have unloaded onto the ground on the victim's right side.

3b. The police report stated it was found on the opposite side.

The police report also stated, per the medical examiner, there were definite "marks" on the victim's hands proving that he was the executioner.

Later reports revealed this was also untrue, there were no marks whatsoever and this statement was also stricken from the record.

3c. Several leading experts on "shotgun" suicides also wrote articles on this particular case questioning two main points.

3c-a. The recoil of a shotgun blast is strong enough to ensure the positioning of the weapon is on average, two feet further from its original positioning at the time of execution.

The positioning of the gun in this particular case was logged into the report as:

"clutched in the victim's hands. As if the hands were literally wrapped around the trigger."

3c-b. Leading experts in the field of violent suicides also questioned the condition of the gunshot wound to the face in this particular case.

In ALL cases studied where a shotgun is fired toward the face at point-blank range, the victim is near to decapitated. The amount of blood, astounding.

In this case, the victim's face was not only completely intact, but the only sign of a wound was blood near the left ear -- leading experts to believe the victim's heart had already stopped beating from the lethal dose of heroin, which refrained it from pumping blood into the head area, causing little to no damage.

4. Medical examiner Nikolas Hartshorne made a statement for the record at the scene that the amount of heroin found in the victim's blood was not a lethal amount. He logged in a low percentage into the police report.

4a. Shortly after the body was cremated, a different examiner came forward and stated that the percentage found in Cobain's system was a severe amount Three times the lethal limit.

4b. This finding evoked a serious back-lash toward the concealing of evidence, and enraged relatives of victims of the growing number of copy-cat suicides -- in an effort to stop these senseless suicides, the second medical examiner released an EIGHT PAGE scientific analysis report entitled "Dead Men Don't Pull Triggers" to prove that it was scientifically impossible to still be conscious and functional with that much heroin in the system in order to prepare a gun and pull the trigger.

5. The majority of police who reported to the crime scene gave statements regarding the fact that the shotgun, the "suicide" note next to the body, the pen next to the note, the needle that contained the heroin, the heroin itself, and the box of bullets near the victim ALL contained NO LEGIBLE fingerprints WHATSOEVER... Here was their statements :

"no relevance. There was a note. A clear case of suicide."

5a. The Seattle Police Department kept the shotgun in a plastic bag for a full MONTH before they actually decided to check for PRINTS.

5b. The "suicide" note in question was under severe speculation when it was released to the public and the only lines that had suicidal undertones was written in a severely larger and different style handwriting.

5c. Later reports revealed that Cobain's widow, Ms. Love was in possession of a "handwriting practice sheet" that pronounced every letter of the alphabet several times -- in several different styles.

5c-a. This paper was NOT logged in as evidence, and discarded by police as irrelevant.

5c-b. Several months after Cobain's death, Ms. Love came forward with a second note written by Cobain. In this note, he specifically stated that he was leaving her:

"Please don't follow me. I don't know where I'm going. But I just can't be here anymore."

She revealed this note to a friend and Seattle police officer who worked on the case named Sgt Cameron. He promptly stated;

"That's not going to help your case, I'd get rid of it." So she BURNT IT.

6. Two weeks prior to the victim's death, the Seattle Police department reported to the Cobain residence after a 911 call was placed by Ms. Love insisting that her husband was "suicidal" and had locked himself in the bathroom "with a gun".

Once the police arrived, Cobain calmly came out of the bathroom (gun free) and stated calmly, "I am not suicidal. I locked myself in the bathroom to get away from my wife".

Ms. Love then ADMITTED to police that he did not use the word suicide and did not in fact have a gun. The police logged these details into their report.

6a. The night of the victim's death, one of the same responding officers arrived first to this scene. When asked by another officer what the situation was, the officer responded with "cut and dry suicide. Remember? We just responded to this house a couple weeks back where he tried to kill himself then..."

7. Ms. Love called the Seattle Police Department to report her husband as "missing" a few days before the body was discovered. When asked to give her name, she stated "Wendy O'Connor", Cobain's mother's name.

7a. Later reports revealed that she had made unsupported claims while impersonating another individual regarding a missing adult who was in fact still making regular appearances at his own home. The Seattle Police Department neither brought Ms. Love in for questioning nor booking for this suspicious act.

8. Ms. Love hired a private investigator by the name of Tom Grant to trail her husband and discover his whereabouts. In the weeks he worked for her, Mr. Grant recorded numerous telling conversations and accumulated several pieces of evidence that ensured foul-play.

8a. The Seattle Police Department refused to take a look at his findings and dismissed his work as "irrelevant".

9. Several professional photographs were taken of the crime scene, revealing particular evidence for this case.

9a. This criminal act took place in 1994. It is now 2011 and that roll of film has never been DEVELOPED.
When the Seattle Police Department is asked by many media outlets why this is, their answer is always short and brief:

"We never develop film from cases that are cut and dry suicides."

You studied law. Justice was nowhere to be found that fateful day. And he deserves it now.


Friday, June 24, 2011

Mysterious deaths directly connected to Cobain case and Courtney Love --

Kurt Cobain. Beloved father, son, grandson, icon. Leaving Seattle. Divorce papers in the works. Will rewritten.Unsigned.

Two murder attempts. One murder.

Cause of death: Heroin overdose.

Kristen Pfaff. Beloved daugher, granddaughter, Friend. Rumored romance with Kurt. Leaving Seattle. Leaving the band Hole. Last seen alive by Hole guitarist.

One murder attempt.One murder.

Cause of death: Heroin overdose.

Eldon Hoke. Musician. Friend. Approached to perform murder. Passed lie detector 99.7 percent accurate. Did not proceed. Gave interview with name of alleged murderer.

One murder attempt. One murder.

Cause of death: Ran over by a train.

Antonio Terry. Beloved father. Husband. Grandson. Police Officer. Performed favors. Destroyed evidence.

One murder attempt. One murder.

Cause of death: Helping stranded motorists. Gunned down.

Nikolas Hartshorne. Medical investigator. Friend. First at scene. Wrote off death as suicide based on single note. Left job and Seattle.

One murder attempt. One murder.

Cause of death: BASE jumping accident.

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

The answers in a song...

I would never bother you
I would never promise to
I will never follow you
I will never bother you
Never say a word again
I will crawl away for good
I will move away from here
You won't be afraid of fear
No thought was put into this
I always knew it would come to this
Things have never been so swell
I have never felt failed to fail


You know you're right
I´m so warm and calm inside
I no longer have to hide
Let's talk about someone else Steaming, soon begins to melt[nothing else is right!!!!]Nothin' really bothers her
She just wants to love herself I will move away from here
You won't be afraid of fear
No thought was put into this
I always knew it'll come to this
Things have never been so swell
I have never felt so well


You know you're right


"Nothin' really bothers her
She just wants to love herself I will move away from here"

You knew. Didn't you Kurt? You knew she wasn't worth anything. That she only loved herself... You had many plans to leave. To just disappear. To start a new life, find a new love. A real love. Real and true. Because you were capable. Your heart and soul true and calm. If only...

I'm so sorry.


Friday, June 17, 2011

Mayor McGinn,

I am not a resident of Seattle, but I've visited in the past and fell in love with the beautiful pine trees the state has to offer.

I am an independent film producer based in Hollywood California. The reason I am writing to you may seem strange and irrelevant in a time when jobs are few and far between, and hunger in the U.S. is worse than ever. But perhaps in such hard times... One needs to cling to the idea that a greater good than ourselves is still present and the preservation of justice remains relevant in an era where hope is dwindling.

I want to tell you a short story, and I'd like you to picture the details as if you, yourself are living them.

Imagine you are being told for the first time that you are going to be a father. You aren't prepared, and it is unplanned. You ponder how to respond to the magnitude of what it means to be a dad when your own father seemingly abandoned you at a young age, while still in the process of bridging the gap with him, your daughter's birth approaches. She is born, and she is beautiful to you. An angel.

Your life changes in a heartbeat, and the love is so strong you are compelled to write to your own father and demand an explanation on why and HOW he could leave, now knowing yourself the true impact fatherhood has. You write with a passionate hand that you would do absolutely everything in your power to be there for your daughter -- unlike the way he was never there for you. You write how you would FIGHT TO THE DEATH to be there and support your child not out of DUTY but LOVE. But there are things in your life that need changing... You are no longer in love with your wife. Your career is no longer fulfilling you deep down. And the drug dependency you have accumulated due to a stomach ailment no doctor can diagnose needs treatment...

So what do you do? You begin to make changes. You speak to your divorce lawyer about filing for divorce. You refrain from signing a contractual renewal to continue working and making money for the large corporation that owns you. You check into a drug treatment facility. All this you begin to change, while remaining deeply and madly in love with your newborn daughter. Hundreds of photos and letters embody this love.

You begin to make future plans, more changes for the better. You plan a fishing trip with the grampa you love dearly. You speak to a smaller, more independent corporation regarding a more soulful partnership and caring working environment. You purchase two one way tickets out of the city and away from the lifestyle that has taken over your existence. And you write another letter, explaining it all in detail.

Then imagine this: this letter becomes your suicide note.

Then imagine this. THE POLICE INVESTIGATION ONLY LASTS FOUR HOURS. Now imagine this. Your two year old daughter is abandoned. Forever blaming you. Every time your name is spoken. Suicide. Every time your biography is read. Suicide. Every time your legacy is remembered. Suicide.

Now imagine this. Over one HUNDRED and SEVENTY-FIVE teenagers also took their lives because yours was written off as a SUICIDE after only FOUR HOURS of investigation.

Don't you think you'd deserve... Don't you think your DAUGHTER would DESERVE more care, more time and more WORTH when a whole life is snuffed out?

Kurt Cobain was a multi-million dollar rock star who gained a bad reputation with drugs and the police -- on the outside. On the inside... He was everything I just explained above.

When you take away the glitz, glamour and stereotype... He sounds like someone you might know. Someone you might respect. And a life that ended far too soon. A mysterious death that deserves attention.
I just explained to you the emotional aspects of it. The physical evidential proof at the scene and the odd behavior of several individuals in the month leading up to his death would astound you.

Imagine it. "I would fight to my death to be there for her." His daughter just turned 18. That is sixteen years she's already spent thinking her dad killed himself.

Based on a random note he wrote to his fans telling them he was leaving the music industry. THIS, and the fact that it was scientifically proven that the amount of heroin in his system (three times the lethal amount), rendered him incapacitated at the time of the bullet entering his brain, proves a blatant disregard for human life and an undeniable negligence toward criminal justice that the Seattle Police Department should be ashamed of.

Millions of us still care out here. 175 teenagers across America took their lives in vain. Clear his name -- and you clear theirs. You have the power to have this case reopened. And only you.

Thank you for your time.


Sunday, June 5, 2011

My heart
Torn in two
We go through
I pass by a stranger
They are as close
As anyone I know
No one knows me
Like I do
A world as empty
Torn in two
The only one to
Know my heart
My closest friend
The emptiness
Torn apart
God its been ages
Nothing new
Another city
Another view
A stranger looks me
Up and down
Do you know me
Nothing new
Poured hearts out
To friends one week
Seasons pass
Strangers speak
now Raise a brow
Weren't we close on
Moved on from me
Worlds apart
One day the same
City view
One day the same
People too
One day the same
And I'll know you
One day the same
Days and weeks
Streets and seasons
Hearts and souls
One day the same
And You'll know me