The year was 1991.... a young fledgling rock star from Seattle was in pain. A lot of pain. Rigorous touring was not to blame. Soon the young musician realized something was wrong. Very wrong. His wife, that he'd had memories of but never actually met was missing from his life. From that time period in general. Trapped in 2012, she awaits a way back. A way back to change the future... a future that turns into a place with no Kurt Cobain.

A murder plot that turns into the most famous suicide in history, this site is dedicated to the small story of the husband who left a billion clues for the wife who figured them out.

Now her goal is to avenge her husband's death by pinning the murderer's with their crime...

Meanwhile she pours herself into her journal, awaiting the day she is finally reunited with her husband in time.

Letters to Kurt...

Sunday, June 13, 2010

To Boddah. You're such a Tearjerker.

Dear Kurt,

I'm having trouble deciphering the relationship with your invisible friend. It's been said that "Boddah" was an imaginary friend you had in your adulthood. Which, is understandable given your character...

But the attachment of the name to your "suicide" note is another very insightful mistake from the forger. It is clear that through notebook, after notebook after notebook you have written hundreds of letters to friends, relatives, journalists.... the works. But not a single public letter other than the "suicide" note has ever been revealed where you literally start with:

"To/Dear Boddah."

I believe that this is an extremely obvious ploy to convince the reader of the note that this would, without a doubt conclude that the full letter was written with your hand by 1) Having the strangely larger handwriting at the top and 2) Followed by the strangely different handwriting at the bottom, essentially concluding the note as a "whole."

I also believe that anyone who knows you extremely well, would assume the one surefire way to convince the public that this was in fact your full note would be to use a term (i.e. Boddah) that is more personal and uniquely yours. But instead of it actually convincing us that this was in fact you, it actually appears even more like a desperate attempt to prove it's you, but is actually a little too over the top.

Just another observation that will never change the fact that every article or listing of your name will forever be followed by this : 1967-1994 (suicide).

It sickens me to no end how they tore your character apart. How the world just.... bought it. It's not right, it's not fair and it's unjustifiable. You had a life. You had a life that will never be again. How could someone do that and just go on with theirs?

You toured with a band in the early 90's who have, in the last couple decades... became... larger than life. They knew you. Face to face. Person to person. And they are like all the others. The paper says suicide. So.... it must be suicide. If they cared so much, so much for you... why didn't they look at the proof? The proof that has shown so many of us with common sense... the truth.

They wrote you a song. And the lyrics are beautiful. The guitarist had a lot in common with you -- "We're so trendy we can't even escape ourselves."

The song goes something like this...

My mouth fell open
Hoping that the truth
Would not be true
Refuse the news

I'm feeling sick now
What the fuck am I
Supposed to do
Just lose and lose

First time I saw you
You were sitting
Backstage in a dress
A perfect mess

You never knew this
But I wanted badly
for you to requite my

Left on the floor
Leaving your body
When highs are the
lows and lows are
the way

So hard to stay
Guess now you know
I love you so

I liked your whiskers
And I liked the dimple in
your chin your pale blue

You painted pictures cause
the one who hurts
Can give so much
You gave me such

Peace... Love... Empathy,

Justice Seeker.

p.s. If there is a God, and a Heaven... and you're soul is there as we speak. Did you know it was happening? I often wonder, if people's lives that end by the hand of another's if they realize as they go, what just took place.

1 comment:

Savant said...

You r on the right track en re the Boodah note: Nobody knew he was into that character spirit except his killer who is a guilt ridden sentimental sociopath... The killer is confessing before the crime was committed... talk about premeditation.Look for other confessionals from the Roman Catholic killer... Check out Twitter where the killer tells us he or she lied...SPIN mag (back in the 1990s) and even other notes written in Kurt's name by the killer when Kurt was still alive and confessed to eventually...notes to a Conde Naste magazine. Kurt died moaning and fighting, he knew he was being murdered...people heard him from downstairs. These people have been paid off but can be tracked through Kitty Dave Grohl knows. Check Australia home purchases as part of pay off.