The year was 1991.... a young fledgling rock star from Seattle was in pain. A lot of pain. Rigorous touring was not to blame. Soon the young musician realized something was wrong. Very wrong. His wife, that he'd had memories of but never actually met was missing from his life. From that time period in general. Trapped in 2012, she awaits a way back. A way back to change the future... a future that turns into a place with no Kurt Cobain.

A murder plot that turns into the most famous suicide in history, this site is dedicated to the small story of the husband who left a billion clues for the wife who figured them out.

Now her goal is to avenge her husband's death by pinning the murderer's with their crime...

Meanwhile she pours herself into her journal, awaiting the day she is finally reunited with her husband in time.

Letters to Kurt...


Tuesday, July 30, 2013

Eric Erlandson of "Hole", a fake band with fake popularity released a book entitled "Letters to Kurt" and he is going to die. He's sued like a mother fucker. They are all going to pay. And Dave Grohl actually did write "My Hero" about Kurt. He's screwed again. Every single one of them knew it was murder... Here's the lyrics --

"My Hero"

Too alarming now to talk about
Take your pictures down and shake it out
Truth or consequence, say it aloud
Use that evidence, race it around

There goes my hero
Watch him as he goes
There goes my hero
He's ordinary

Don't the best of them bleed it out
While the rest of them peter out
Truth or consequence, say it aloud
Use that evidence, race it around

There goes my hero
Watch him as he goes
There goes my hero
He's ordinary

Kudos, my hero
Leaving all the best
You know my hero
The one that's on

There goes my hero
Watch him as he goes
There goes my hero
He's ordinary
There goes my hero
Watch him as he goes
There goes my hero
He's ordinary


call him ordinary again faggot and you're dead.

Sunday, July 28, 2013

Hey everyone if anyone is reading this... i almost got murdered by a random guy who i went home with and i feel sick. I don't know what to do. I need you so bad, Kurt. I hope you assholes have some compassion for this situation that me and him have dealt with our whole lives... literally being away from our spouses since birth. I'm so devastated. I'm working on getting some current photos of me up here. Hopefully from the photo shoot after the L.A. weekly interview. That's all I have to say. Courtney Love is going to rot in hell.

Thankfully still alive,
Rose

Saturday, July 27, 2013

new song

that velveteen coat (aberdeen)

I used to be
I used to be
a little boy
a little boy
from aberdeen
aberdeen
good ole aberdeen
aberdeen
she honestly loved me
she honestly loved me
since I was seventeen
seventeen
wearin' baggy ripped jeans
baggy ripped jeans
from seventeen
seventeen
from seventeen
seventeen
seventeen
seventeen
i wrote her a love song
wrote her a love song
ten miles long
ten miles long
and then I rose up
then I rose up
up on the scene
up on the scene
up on the scene
up on the scene
and left aberdeen
aberdeen
left aberdeen
aberdeen
for that stretch limosene
stretch limosene
I was young and green
young and green
if you know what I mean
know what I mean
I wasn't the man
wasn't the man
to make a stand
to make a stand
and she was an actress
she was an actress
with hollywood dreams
hollywood dreams
and I was a boy
I was a boy
from wholesome aberdeen
aberdeen
so when she arrived
when she arrived
in her own limosene
own limosene
i was just wearin'
i was just wearin'
my favorite yellow tweed
favorite yellow tweed
strummin' a guitar
strummin a guitar
playin' a rock star
playin' a rock star
on mtv
mtv
on mtv
mtv
on mtv
mtv
on mtv
mtv
and she didn't notice
she didn't notice
'til I put on that coat
put on that coat
she thought it was cotton
thought it was cotton
but i'd nearly forgotten
nearly forgotten
it was velveteen
velveteen
my best velveteen
velveteen
my best velveteen
velveteen
my best velveteen
velveteen
she thought I was trendy
thought I was trendy
playin' that fendi
playin' that fendi
just a good ole boy
just a good ole boy
from wholesome aberdeen
aberdeen
aberdeen
aberdeen
I gave her a smile
gave her smile
to last for a while
to last for a while
but she thought it was cocky
she thought it was cocky
and thought I was foxy
and thought I was foxy
but didn't take note
didn't take note
'till I put on that coat
'till I put on that coat
she thought it was cotton
thought it was cotton
it was velveteen
velveteen
my best velveteen
velveteen
on the rock-n-roll scene
rock-n-roll scene
I honestly loved her
I honestly loved her
since seventeen
seveenteen
before I rose up
before I rose up
on the scene
on the scene
she didn't take note
she didn't take note
'till my most romantic show
my most romantic show
candles and cloves
candles and cloves
and a hand-beaded necklace
around my throat
my hair was a mess
hair was a mess
dressed in my best
dressed in my best
jade and lavender
lavender
jade and lavender
lavender
jade and lavender
lavender
jade and lavender
lavender
so there I was sippin'
there I was sippin'
pennyroyal tea
pennyroyal tea
she thought it was crass
she thought it was crass
sittin' on my own ass
sittin' on my own ass
so she left in a hurry
left in a hurry
and I said baby don't
worry
baby don't worry
I'm still that boy
still that boy
from seventeen
seventeen
wearin' those baggy
wearin those baggy
ripped blue jeans
ripped blue jeans
so I got down
I got down
on bended knee
bended knee
if she could discover
if she could discover
just how much I love her
just how much I love her
in that black velveteen
black veveteen
she'd know what I mean
know what I mean
it took her a while
took her a while
to put up a smile
put up a smile
so we got married
so we got married
in aberdeen
aberdeen
good 'ole aberdeen
aberdeen
good 'ole aberdeen
aberdeen
we sported our own
we sported our own
stretch limosene
stretch limosene
and I finally asked her
I finally asked her
what made her lean
what made her lean
and she bluntly told me
she bluntly told me
it was that soft velvet coat
when she took note
so I had to come clean
I had to come clean
about that note she wrote
note she wrote
to the magazines
to the magazines
about my best velveteen
my best velveteen
that velveteen jacket
that velveteen jacket
that caused such a racket
that caused such a racket
and came with a tacked back
came with a tacked back
was right off the hat rack
right off the hat rack
and didn't belong
didn't belong
to me
to me
it was mtv's
mtv's
yeah mtv's
mtv's
it was mtv's
mtv's
it was mtv's
mtv's
it was mtv's
mtv's
it was mtv's
mtv's
it was mtv's
mtv's
that velveteen coat
velveteen coat
and that note she wrote
note she wrote
said she dug me
said she dug me
but she honestly
loved me
she honestly loved me
since I was seventeen
seventeen
wearin' those baggy
wearin' those baggy
ripped blue jeans
ripped blue jeans
haulin' barley
haulin' barley
from good 'ole aberdeen
aberdeen
na na na na na
na na na na na
na na na na na
na na na na na
na na na na na
na na na na na
na na na na na
na na na na na



Thursday, July 25, 2013

This little group[tribe] always was and always will be --

a mulatto -- Jared
an albino -- Kurt
a mosquito -- River
My libido -- me
Hey honey I think I am going to be sick. I found information on all your solo material that existed before you were killed and I have got to get my hand on those lyrics. I have got to. I can't imagine how many songs were directed to me again. I am contacting lawyers like crazy. I love you.

Rose

Tuesday, July 23, 2013

God's Children's SLOGANS, before they KNEW who they WERE:

THE CHOSEN ONES


the husband/the leader/suitor number one

Kurt Donald Cobain
feb. 20th, 1967 - apr. 5th 1994

"In the Sun I Feed As One"

and

"God Is Gay"

the brother/suitor number two

River Jude Phoenix
aug. 23rd 1971 - Oct. 31st 1993

"Just call me Lucifer"

He's hid some bones in Alexa's Attic

the dark knight/suitor number three

Jared "The Scared" Leto
birthdate unknown

"This Is War, God"

Alibis?? Exactly ONE.

And

the center of the globe/The Girl Genius/The Baby/the wife/God's 'favorite'/Daddy's little girl

code name: Beth Berger alias Rose Phoenix-Cobain

"Better Than God"

now

"I Am God"

and

"anything you can do I can do better"

"numero uno"


------------------------------- AND THESE WERE THEIR ATTITUDES BEFORE THEY KNEW WHO THEY WERE RELATED TO---------------------------------- the one and only God Almighty --- He sure knows how to pick them.



Polly gets a rewrite and the Martyr (Voice in the Crowd) dialogue is written....

First of all... Dave Grohl is dead. He knew, more than anyone... the plot for Kurt's murder. Read the lyrics to My Hero. That was my last straw. I may actually go into the police station at this point and report it.

"He's ordinary"?? Even his shade of blonde I will never find again... You're gonna get atleast twenty years for this Dave. I hope the Foo Fighters was worth it. Kurt had respect for you all... and you threw him in the dumpster like he was nothing. He was my everything and you will pay. It's funny. Dave knew it was murder, but at the same time, he writes in My Hero like it was suicide just to twist it around to try and save his ass if it's salvagable at this point.

It's NOT. Any ways, you're all dead. "Polly" is below... I wanted to give it more depth and personability. As a LARGE side note, this is a *FICTICIOUS STORY*. KURT DID NOT RAPE ANYONE.

Eat Shit.

"Polly"

polly wants a cracker
i think i should get off her first
i think she wants some water
to put out the blow torch

isn't me have a seed
let me clip your dirty wings
let me take a ride cut yourself
want some help please myself

get some rope you have been told
promise you i have been true
let me take a ride cut yourself
want some help please myself

polly says her back hurts
maybe I should slit her wrists
bring her some aspirin
or call her a funeral hearse

i never went to college
in high school was a wrestlin' dish
daddy was an asshole
with a penny couldn't make a wish

polly's barely breathin'
mommy wouldn't even make a fist
red rover says it's over
we're wagin' a penitentiary trist

mommy call the doctor
or just hang me from your cryptic list

now polly's in the gutter
I shoulda avoided that one crude salvic kiss
mommy was a martyr
like a guppie I couldn't get it right
workin' for the warden
now i'm servin' 25 to life

a suicidal hang man
maybe i'll finally end this civil gripe
polly says don't bother
she'll charge in before i get it right

mommy can you help me
i'm beggin' for your umbilical strife
now their gonna gas me
you should see the mass prision hype

all of this from an erection
just to hide the pain of a parental fight
i'll probably pray to jesus
if polly lets me near the kike

see all of you in heaven
god forgave a little boy who lost his sight
mommy come to confession
i will show you in spades there's no trite
 now back into the womb
polly says she will forgive with full might


*in loving memory, "Polly from the punk rock show"


From the Sweet Valley Highish "Suicide Series" The prequel to Rockstar Suicide, the disgruntled fan who loses it over his harsh suicide note and starts the revolutionary frenzy against him.

The Martyr (The Voice in the Crowd)

EXT. MANSION - DAY

a massive crowd is gathered around an exquisite house with large trees hiding the threshold. Soft, quiet sobbing can be heard. Fans mill about... lighting candles... embracing each other. It is as silent as a church.

A female head bobs around. Glancing about. She hesitates.

FEMALE VOICE(to herself)
Oh my god. This is unbelievable. What are
they doing?? This is rediculous.
(yelling to the crowd)
What are you crying for? What are you crying
for, huh?? There's nothing sad here... he got
what he wanted... he's burning out!

the audience remains silent. They continue to light candles.

FEMALE VOICE(glancing about)
(loudly)
Put those candles away! Stop doing that.
(to herself)
Oh my god. Stop doing that.
(to the crowd again)
There's nothing to cry about! He wasn't afraid!
And you're not a messiah, Curt.

She hesitates. More sobs drift through the atmosphere.

FEMALE VOICE
(in frustration)
You've got to be kidding me. Quit crying.
It's better to burn out than to fade away?? You
can't do that! That's not an answer. And it's
not a cause...
(beat)
Helluva punchline, huh?? Fading away? I don't
have the passion anymore?? You never had
the passion! Why are you so quiet, huh? Cat
got your tongue? Suffering in silence?
(beat)
What did you really wanna say? Go ahead...
tell them! You hated these people! They're no
good! You despised them.

She angles her attention to the crowd again --

FEMALE VOICE
(loudly)
What are you crying for, huh? He hated you!
He chose death. Not you! Go ahead. Call him
an asshole. He still hates you!

Softly, to herself --

FEMALE VOICE
oh my god.
(pause, yelling up to the open window)
I'm on my time with everybody??
(beat)
He knew how much you loved him. He knew
how much you needed him. But I'm the one
who's suffering. Not you.
(to the open window)
You were my everything! How could you do this!
(whispering to herself)
no. God.
(back to the open window)
I'd rather be dead than cool?? Have you no shame?
out of the ground... into the sky... out of the sky....
into the dirt?? What's wrong with you! Didn't you
know how much I needed you! Oh my god!!

Her voice raises --

FEMALE VOICE
We didn't know anything about your life!
I don't eat anything green?? What does
that mean?
(beat)
lettuce... broccoli... celery... asparagus...
spinnich... peas.... cabbage...
(beat)
apples???

She shakes her head again, her face remains in the shadows --

FEMALE VOICE
I'd rather be dead than cool???
(beat)
Well you're dead! And it's not cool!!
What else should I write?
(beat)
I don't have the right!

The crowd is dead silent now. The tears have subsided.

FEMALE VOICE
The soul is cheap?
(beat)
That's it?
(beat)
That's it???
(beat)
I would have given you anything! Anything!
(beat)
I lie in the grass and fertilize mushrooms??
(beat)
How could you be so crass? How could you
be so disrespectful when I needed your life.
I needed it!! It's not funny!
(beat)
I hate myself and I want to die?? Then say so!
How could you do this to me?? How could you
do this. It's not funny, Curt. You were my
everything. My everything. My everything!
(beat)
How could you do this to me?....

The silence fades out along with the picture....

FEMALE VOICE
You were my everything. I've always loved you.
Always. Always. How could you do this to me!
The soul is cheap? The soul is cheap?? Your
soul was everything to me! Everything!
(beat)
Answer me goddamn you! Answer me! How
could you do this to me!
(to the crowd)
Put down those signs! He had a life goddamn it. He
was a person, you know! Not just an image. Not just an idea!
A person! Oh my god, I loved you!!
(beat)
How could you do this to me. How could you do this to me.

The crowd remains silent as she continues to rant....

FADE TO BLACK