When I first started this journal I had no idea the connection I had to Kurt... let alone the amount of songs with lyrics directed at me... it worked out wonderfully, i just wish it didn't take me twenty years to get on the stick regarding everything. I love you Kurt, and anyone who disbelieves any of this can kiss my ass and eat shit... stop reading it and stop commenting. It's none of your business... that's why I choose to keep it private.

RPC

I need you.

So John Lennon walks into the Whiskey, and I say imagine that John.... imagine that.

Lennon writes a song about peace and human condition and gets gunned down by a human with no inner peace. Imagine that, John.

The southern Redneck takes Hollywood --

(thick southern drawl....)


"So I'm walkin' down the boulevard minding my own business, and day night dawn to light it is packed. I'm pushin' my way through and soon I bump into this guy in black who says his name is 'Darth Vader'. I think well, it's Hollywood. I've heard wackier names. I say, what, did ur father not like you or somethin'....And he replies in a low voice --

"I AM NOT YOUR FATHER".

And I say well I didn't ask you if you were my father or not... I asked you if your father liked you or not, now get the hell out of the way! I'm in a hurry! Then he pulls out this long red thing from his pocket, and I'm like what.... is that a dildo or something?? that's sick man... I don't have time for this.... move it...

Next thing I know... superman flies out of nowhere. And i'm like... hey man.... I thought you died?? oh wait... that's Christopher Reeves. Anyways, I don't mind superman that much, it's that bitch Lois Lane that really sticks in my craw...

Danglin' from a helicopter on a skyscraper... and here comes superman. Hangin' from an elevator with dynamite strapped to her chest.... here comes superman.... sinkin' in the earth, trapped in a car, dead...and superman not only finds her -- but he spins the whole earth around backwards for her... now that's loyalty.
Kind of ruins love for the rest of us...

Next thing I know spiderman weaves a web around me. And finally I'm like --- Don't ya'll actors have anything better to do with your time then dress up as super heroes for tips??..... Hollywood....

another song I'm working on...

Here is a spoof on Kurt's beautiful I Hate Myself and I want to die....




I hate myself and I wanna die
stick a needle in my eye

just like the taste of ma's old corn bread
stick a gun right to my head

they say it's greener on the other grass
stick a shotgun barrel right up my ass

like the chromatic crush of my membrane
the urge to free my mind drives me insane

suck my balls and lick my cock
the monkey's and bee gee's sure do rock

I said I hate myself and I wanna die
these straight arrow shells sure don't lie!

beautiful on unplugged... why did you never look like this again?

I love you. I miss you. I can't wait to get back to L.A. and try that portal.

Honey,

I am sick and tired of these assholes thinking they can control what I do... DOn't they know I am no longer a  part of their stupid family?? As soon as I get back to L.A. I will try the portal vigorously... I miss you like crazy -- I love you like crazy -- I am GOING TO CRACK.

Please help!!!! Love you!!

Rose