Dear Kurt,

The last few weeks I was freaked out and am going through a faze where I thought you were alive and trying to contact me on here. I was wrong and I am still trying to come to terms with whether it was suicide or murder. Your lyrics in lithium make me fear that you were under the impression that if you killed yourself you would come straight to me and I thought that was true for a while.... I can't rest with that 'suicide' note that was left as I don't buy it as one I believe you would leave... so I am left to draw the conclusion off of that note that it had to be murder because it does not sound like a legitimate suicide note of yours or any ones. So I will just leave this with, goodnight, and I love you more than anything. I wish I knew of a portal for sure so we can start our lives again....

I love you.