Dear Kurt,

God I love you. It's been almost twenty years since you were here and I can still feel you. I love you. Sleep tight.

Love Always,
Rose/your wife forever

In Utero:

So In Utero is basically a concept album Kurt wrote regarding his personal life and relationships with me and his "wife" at the time Courtney..... the album is very personal to him and he was very excited to release it... as well as Hole's live through this that was filled with all kinds of notations that appeared as if he had made the decision to throw in his life on In Utero for his own self-persecution regarding falling into Courtney's "magnet tarpit trap" the line from Heart Shaped Box when he was in love with another woman (me) That he personifies in the song "I Hate Myself And Want TO Die" with the line "you're the one I want to refill".... He also released a last song that you all know well called "You Know You're Right" that was also devoted to me that had to do with leaving Courtney to scour the country for me. At this point it looked as though he was really encouraged to live and NOT suicidal with the lines: "I'm so calm and warm inside I no longer have to hide" which expresses his feelings towards finally having the initative to get out of the faulty marriage to Courtney and finally try to be with me, although I was very young. The Heart-Shaped Box video is actually really sad as it shows me as a little girl hopping and skipping around and even leaping to grab a hanging fetus from the tree... and the old warn-out man that creeps up to the cross and hangs himself there as like I said, "persecution" for putting his dick inside Courtney and getting the disgusting tramp pregnant. All in all the whole album is beautiful that way and a very nice concept album for all of you who know's what that means.

Peace.

Kurt admits Nirvana was not his greatest attempt at music shitbirds --

Kurt writes in Smells Like Teen Spirit, and admits Nirvana is a joke attempt at his music:

"I'm worse at what I do best.... for this gift I feel blessed".

And p.s. I am BODDAH.

Eric Erlandson of "Hole", a fake band with fake popularity released a book entitled "Letters to Kurt" and he is going to die. He's sued like a mother fucker. They are all going to pay. And Dave Grohl actually did write "My Hero" about Kurt. He's screwed again. Every single one of them knew it was murder... Here's the lyrics --

"My Hero"

Too alarming now to talk about
Take your pictures down and shake it out
Truth or consequence, say it aloud
Use that evidence, race it around

There goes my hero
Watch him as he goes
There goes my hero
He's ordinary

Don't the best of them bleed it out
While the rest of them peter out
Truth or consequence, say it aloud
Use that evidence, race it around

There goes my hero
Watch him as he goes
There goes my hero
He's ordinary

Kudos, my hero
Leaving all the best
You know my hero
The one that's on

There goes my hero
Watch him as he goes
There goes my hero
He's ordinary
There goes my hero
Watch him as he goes
There goes my hero
He's ordinary

call him ordinary again faggot and you're dead.

Hey everyone if anyone is reading this... i almost got murdered by a random guy who i went home with and i feel sick. I don't know what to do. I need you so bad, Kurt. I hope you assholes have some compassion for this situation that me and him have dealt with our whole lives... literally being away from our spouses since birth. I'm so devastated. I'm working on getting some current photos of me up here. Hopefully from the photo shoot after the L.A. weekly interview. That's all I have to say. Courtney Love is going to rot in hell.

Thankfully still alive,
Rose

new song

that velveteen coat (aberdeen)

I used to be
I used to be
a little boy
a little boy
from aberdeen
aberdeen
good ole aberdeen
aberdeen
she honestly loved me
she honestly loved me
since I was seventeen
seventeen
wearin' baggy ripped jeans
baggy ripped jeans
from seventeen
seventeen
from seventeen
seventeen
seventeen
seventeen
i wrote her a love song
wrote her a love song
ten miles long
ten miles long
and then I rose up
then I rose up
up on the scene
up on the scene
up on the scene
up on the scene
and left aberdeen
aberdeen
left aberdeen
aberdeen
for that stretch limosene
stretch limosene
I was young and green
young and green
if you know what I mean
know what I mean
I wasn't the man
wasn't the man
to make a stand
to make a stand
and she was an actress
she was an actress
with hollywood dreams
hollywood dreams
and I was a boy
I was a boy
from wholesome aberdeen
aberdeen
so when she arrived
when she arrived
in her own limosene
own limosene
i was just wearin'
i was just wearin'
my favorite yellow tweed
favorite yellow tweed
strummin' a guitar
strummin a guitar
playin' a rock star
playin' a rock star
on mtv
mtv
on mtv
mtv
on mtv
mtv
on mtv
mtv
and she didn't notice
she didn't notice
'til I put on that coat
put on that coat
she thought it was cotton
thought it was cotton
but i'd nearly forgotten
nearly forgotten
it was velveteen
velveteen
my best velveteen
velveteen
my best velveteen
velveteen
my best velveteen
velveteen
she thought I was trendy
thought I was trendy
playin' that fendi
playin' that fendi
just a good ole boy
just a good ole boy
from wholesome aberdeen
aberdeen
aberdeen
aberdeen
I gave her a smile
gave her smile
to last for a while
to last for a while
but she thought it was cocky
she thought it was cocky
and thought I was foxy
and thought I was foxy
but didn't take note
didn't take note
'till I put on that coat
'till I put on that coat
she thought it was cotton
thought it was cotton
it was velveteen
velveteen
my best velveteen
velveteen
on the rock-n-roll scene
rock-n-roll scene
I honestly loved her
I honestly loved her
since seventeen
seveenteen
before I rose up
before I rose up
on the scene
on the scene
she didn't take note
she didn't take note
'till my most romantic show
my most romantic show
candles and cloves
candles and cloves
and a hand-beaded necklace
around my throat
my hair was a mess
hair was a mess
dressed in my best
dressed in my best
jade and lavender
lavender
jade and lavender
lavender
jade and lavender
lavender
jade and lavender
lavender
so there I was sippin'
there I was sippin'
pennyroyal tea
pennyroyal tea
she thought it was crass
she thought it was crass
sittin' on my own ass
sittin' on my own ass
so she left in a hurry
left in a hurry
and I said baby don't
worry
baby don't worry
I'm still that boy
still that boy
from seventeen
seventeen
wearin' those baggy
wearin those baggy
ripped blue jeans
ripped blue jeans
so I got down
I got down
on bended knee
bended knee
if she could discover
if she could discover
just how much I love her
just how much I love her
in that black velveteen
black veveteen
she'd know what I mean
know what I mean
it took her a while
took her a while
to put up a smile
put up a smile
so we got married
so we got married
in aberdeen
aberdeen
good 'ole aberdeen
aberdeen
good 'ole aberdeen
aberdeen
we sported our own
we sported our own
stretch limosene
stretch limosene
and I finally asked her
I finally asked her
what made her lean
what made her lean
and she bluntly told me
she bluntly told me
it was that soft velvet coat
when she took note
so I had to come clean
I had to come clean
about that note she wrote
note she wrote
to the magazines
to the magazines
about my best velveteen
my best velveteen
that velveteen jacket
that velveteen jacket
that caused such a racket
that caused such a racket
and came with a tacked back
came with a tacked back
was right off the hat rack
right off the hat rack
and didn't belong
didn't belong
to me
to me
it was mtv's
mtv's
yeah mtv's
mtv's
it was mtv's
mtv's
it was mtv's
mtv's
it was mtv's
mtv's
it was mtv's
mtv's
it was mtv's
mtv's
that velveteen coat
velveteen coat
and that note she wrote
note she wrote
said she dug me
said she dug me
but she honestly
loved me
she honestly loved me
since I was seventeen
seventeen
wearin' those baggy
wearin' those baggy
ripped blue jeans
ripped blue jeans
haulin' barley
haulin' barley
from good 'ole aberdeen
aberdeen
na na na na na
na na na na na
na na na na na
na na na na na
na na na na na
na na na na na
na na na na na
na na na na na

This little group[tribe] always was and always will be --

a mulatto -- Jared
an albino -- Kurt
a mosquito -- River
My libido -- me